Do You Ever Wonder

I was laying on my stomach in the lamplight glowing over my bed. The clock read 12:47am. Why am I awake right now? A small chime rang through the dark air. His reply was in. I opened the message that was waiting for me in my inbox. "urmm... hun... what would you take to a BBQ? xxxx" That seemed a rather odd question.... what would I take? Mountain Dew most likely... or Doritos... ok that works.  So that is what I said, while at the same time asking why. I lay in bed thinking about the boy I was talking to... Chris was his name.. or so he said. He lives in London. At first I was only talking to him cause he was nice and sweet, and the ever present bonus that he was from the city I longed to see.... but now he was more than that. He was my friend....
There was the chime. I all but fell out of bed trying to reach the message. I took a deep breath and hit the button that would open his thoughts. "I'm going to a mates BBQ and have no idea what to bring D= xxx wish I could bring you xxxx" Oh my gosh.... that was the sweetest thing anyone has ever said to me!
Oh how I didn't want this conversation to end!! Time passed and I felt extremely guilty when I realized how late it must be over there... I had to say goodbye.. I knew I did... oh but how I didn't want to......
That night he and I had the best conversation. I almost let myself think that he might like me... but as for now no one knows... I haven't spoken to him in two days.... and its all I can do to think of one thing that doesn't lead back to him.... have you ever wondered if maybe that is how things are meant to happen... that if for one fleeting moment everything seems perfect and then all of reality comes crashing down. I wish I could tell him about my aunt.. and about my brother... I wish I could talk to him and tell him all about everything. But then I am left to wonder if maybe he was simply placed in my life for that moment just so I could see what it was like to have someone care about me for me... and not for the clothes I wear or the way I look.
No body knows why we are where we are, or why we meet who we meet.... but do you ever wonder?

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